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May. 18th, 2011

I believe in Santa Claus.

Yes I believe in Santa Claus, He is real. I have total faith and trust in Him. I believe in Him. I believe He will save me, I believe He is my savior. He is the way, the truth, the light and the life. He speaks to me, I hear His voice. He protects me from the evils ones, He safeguards me, He is my good shepherd. Yes His blood will purify me. Chanting His holy name will uplift my soul. "Come I give you rest" says my beloved Santa, the One and the most High. My purpose is to glorify His name and Exalt Him day and night. "His will be done on earth as it is in heaven". I will die in His holy name, oh my divine Son of God, who is the sacrificial lamb who came to die for our sins, and save us from evil. Oh Santa Claus, Oh praise the Lord, You're my Lord, Almighty.   

This is my Believe, This is my Religion. This is my Faith. And you cannot dispute my Faith.

Surely, I will not dispute your Faith,  

Apr. 17th, 2011

'Random Acts of Kindness' is Manipulation - Study Equal Money System.

Within spiritual circles you will hear this term, "Random acts of kindness", i suppose it implies doing or been kind here and there. And random implies, just out of the blue you will push yourself into doing some acts of kindness. The question is will you hug a beggar? will you sit and have tea with a beggar, will go for a walk with a prostitute ? will play with a homeless sick child along with your kids? 

what nonsense, where is the 'random acts of kindness' when you need it the most? in my experience these acts of kindness are forms of manipulation, limited one's circle of friends and family. of course, within the same social economic environment, one lives the dream of 'random acts of kindness' believing self as a kind person. its is total bullshit. 

yet the world needs just one act of kindness, and it is not random, very specific, very well defined, very objective singular act of kindness, and that is the understanding and implementation of Equal Money System. thousands of little acts of kindness means nothing, when all you need is just one life supporting system by which every human being will live in dignity. if you cannot give that, all your so-called 'random acts of kindness are nothing but bullshit attempts at manipulation'. 

stop the spiritual nonsense of believing self to be very kind and pious etc. if you really dare to care, investigate the equal money system. it will be an act of kindness that will touch the lives of 7 billion humans to rest of time. 

see http://www.equalmoney.org

Top 10 Tips to Have Great Sex.

Since coming to desteni, i have realized a few things. And the area of sex is no different, desteni has given ample common sense realizations on how to have good sex. And here is my list on 'how to have good sex'.

1. Breathe, before, during and after sex. Why? because if you don't breathe, you can be taken over by images mostly porn images, then, you're not having sex, rather you are trying to catch up to the images in your head. Hence, a constant comparison and worry exist within your mind before/during/after sex. 

2. Avoid porn to turn you on. well, the need for any type of porn to turn you on is a turn off. again simply breathe, and turn off that mental porn within the mind.

4. touch. yes touch is the real thing, touch your partner, ample touching is cool, and that is the point of turning on, the hard on comes from the touch, not running those porns within your mind. 

5. Don't' rush to cum. Don't' rush to experience that orgasm. breathe slow down. when you feel your mind is rushing for a cum, slow down with breathing. 

6. Be here, meaning be here in the physical, and importantly don't' allow thoughts, ideas, pictures, memories, feelings, projections, to take over. and if it does, you know, ample self-forgiveness is needed. its a sign you are in need of self forgiveness. without judging yourself, simply note those patterns so that you can forgive yourself. 

7. stop any thoughts, judgements about your partner. i mean how  can you enjoy the intimacy with someone about whom you carry loads of judgement? sex is after all about developing trust, communication and intimacy between partners. even if it is just raw pumping, it helps to keep the mind in silence during sex. 

8. stop evaluating the session afterwards. because sex is not a performance evaluator. stop self evaluating and stop evaluating the other after sex. 'oh you're so good in bed' is actually a very nasty comment because it amplifies the performance and disregards the shared expression. evaluation has a touch of ego in it. 

9. sex is about intimacy and self intimacy. another area to focus on self forgiveness if you find issues like mistrust, doubt, anger, and other nasty shit show up during sex. 

10. remember life is not about just having sex. yes sex is cool, sex is great, but life is not about sex, it just having sex allows you to focus on the real shit that goes on in this world. the world is a mess, capitalism, consumerism, is destroying this world, hence fixing it is our collective purpose. so life is really about self changing so that you will do what is best for all. no matter how good is your sex life, some day it will end, all the fun and party will end, and then what is the question. so it is clear life is not about sex, life is about bringing a practical heaven on earth so that all humans will have access to equal quality of life. equality for all is the purpose.

And with that enjoy the joy of sex. 

Apr. 15th, 2011

Capitalism is the Capital Punishment for Humanity.

When life is good, everything looks so good. i am looking for a car for myself these days, i have been hunting for a good deal, so walking into these car showrooms, it feel likes i am in heaven. Flashing new cars, 2011 models, and now even 2012 models are around the corner. Life indeed feels good. 

But one key point is i have to have money, or at least a well paying job for next 48 months to be able afford the monthly payments for the new car. Then I realize yes this money thing is what creates heaven for us. so you have money, you are in heaven, you got no money, you are in hell. such is the very simple math of money. 

And this is why, everyone is so caught up in the rat race to earn that money, so that fancy car can be purchased, or that fancy house can be bought. Its an endless rat race, merciless race, it takes no prisoners, if you win, you can buy your fancy car, and if you lose, you are as good as the dead. 

So called good life, the heavenly feeling that you feel when entering a car showroom is exactly that, a show, a room full of shows. so must investigate what is the real show, what is the real reality of this show we all are caught up in. the show of consumerism, the show of capitalism, the show of endless buying and selling, the show of making a profit at any cost. the show of money is what this is all about. 

earning money is what we do or taught to do from day one. that is why the word 'earn' is part of Learn. as we learn to earn. there you go again, money is everywhere. 

But this endless chase, to earn and then to spend, this greed, this profit making, this blockbuster search for the next amazing thing to profit from, to buy, to sell, gosh, how long can this bubble of capitalism go on as is ? even with a face-lift or good hearted modifications to capitalism and consumerism the current money system cannot go on, it will take humanity to the point of no return. this very chase to survive will kill us. it is the stress of living that kills us, it is constant fear of no money that is killing us, it is the constant buy and sell just to survive is what killing us. 

In a nutshell, capitalism is killing humanity slowly like that Chinese torture.

Not to mention all the environmental and eco disasters capitalism has made in its search for profit. all the companies are making money, the CEOs the executives all are making money. Even the BP executives got their big bonuses despite of the oil spill disasters. who cares, they got to make their big moneys. Capitalism how beautiful it is, for the rich can get richer, the poor gets poorer, the environment and the planet get fucked beyond recovery. 

The principle of capitalism is lets make a profit at any cost. And doing so it will comply and be all 'legal' to give the impression that making a profit is actually a good thing. Anyways time will tell the real nature of capitalism for all to see very clearly.   

I am surprise that only few years back i could not understand all these angles relating to capitalism, i completely gave into the notion that yes, winner takes all, and that we have to learn the art of surviving in this harsh market-driven world of ours. I actually like everyone else believed in such nonsense of capitalism. 

And now i see, capitalism is the capital punishment for humanity, we getter get out of it soon. And thank god, there is a solution waiting to be considered. 

The equal money system.  It will end the self imposed capital punishment on ourselves, so it is our duty to study and investigate this equal money system.  

Apr. 13th, 2011

Stop the bullshit 'divine charity' instead embrace Equal Money System.

A note 'divine charity':

Self-forgive, become self-honest, establish in self-trust, rebirth yourself through the physical as life. consider what is best for all. free yourself from all fears and mind-controlling non-sense like belief systems and religions. stand up as life, as you. consider equal money system, equal labor system, equal housing, equal education, etc, so that all humans have access to equal quality of life, not just few 'lucky' ones. 

a new earth is arriving, where equality for all will be established. inner change, outer change, self-change, world change. at the end, it doesn't matter you stand up for life or not, when your time is up, you will silently die like a fly on the windscreen anyways. 

start with baby steps, apply self-forgiveness, investigate it, see how you can participate in this process, it is your responsibility to self-change and world-change. 

thank god there is death to end all bullshit. 

your divine charity is only charitable for a selected few, and i wonder who is the devil behind the divine charity, as money can turn anyone into a devil. divine charity very much sounds like devil's charity, all thanks to money.

embrace equal money for all, the real divine charity that considers what is best for all 7 billion of us. isn't that really charity, nobody is left out. 


Apr. 12th, 2011

What CULTure do you belong ?

CULTure. very fascinating thing. complete self merger with a so-called culture. really fucked up shit, this thing called culture. but really what is this endorsement or attachment to culture is all about? 

Wars have been declared thanks to CULTures. and there are lot more than just so-called indian culture or western culture. following religions is a culture, chasing and believing in capitalism is CULTure, nationalism is a CULTure, chasing jesus is a CULTure, chasing any guru or god is a CULTure. promoting and protecting self interest is also a CULTure, a cult of ego. 

but popular definition of CULTure is limited to groups of people based on their linguistic and regional characteristics. rather shallow definition actually. even within so called regional groups, there are sub groups and within such subs, there are even more sub groups. 

Consider, India for example, so-called Indian CULTure doesn't apply to every 'Indian'. It all depends which part of india you're from. South indian? ok, which part of south India you're from ? Tamil nadhu? ok, which part of tamil nadhu you're from ? Chennai, ok, which part of Chennai you're from? you got my point, within various question (or filtering) you narrow down the person to a very specific CULTure. you can imagine, diversity within diversity though presented a fake notion of unity and oneness within the idea of CULTure. that is the popular definition. Its nothing but a self interest promoting, fear based CULT is what a CULTure is. In war and sports, socalled CULTure thrives. 

Looking a bit deeper, what is a CULTure? As far as my experience, CULTure is a form of brainwashing limited to specific group, it is very exclusive. it does not consider what is best for all, it does not include every human being. it is purely ego based self interest based mind controlled brainwashed bullshit.

of course, religion is the greatest example of CULTure. even within the same religion there layers within layers, diverse enough to kill each other. But capitalism, consumerism, patriotism, nationalism, are also CULTures, but very hard to see it. Do you follow the CULTure of capitalism ?

so really investigate what CULTure do you belong. you could be doped within even knowing it. Be careful.

So I invite you to study the CULT of LIFE, Study Desteni. Study Equal Money System, study that which includes every human being, no exclusions whatsoever. of course, the abusers will be banned till they self-correct. 

I am one vote for the CULT of LIFE which include everyone, every human being. 

Study it, investigate what desteni.co.za is all about, what Equal Money System is all about. 

Apr. 11th, 2011

Give and you shall Receive - Equal Money System.

yes, lets revisit this old principle, give and you shall receive. so far no practical means of implementing such thing has been invented, equal money system is the first such practical plan. give and you shall receive. i am simply amazed that we actually have a solution in our hands to fix all of world problems. now its only matter of putting it into place. this will require many humans studying and understanding equal money system. along with, it will require many humans applying self forgiveness to purify them. 

we cannot miss this chance to clean up the world. a chance like this may never come again. so lets move lets act lets study lets get involved in this equal money system study. at this stage, the most important thing one can do is actually study what equal money is, share it with others. the word of mouth for a new world is the point of action for now. yes along with it, forgive yourself, self purification is a must with self forgiveness. 

so check out http://www.equalmoney.org

lets give and receive. this is not charity. lets give to all and then all shall receive, this includes me and you, in fact everyone. 

Apr. 10th, 2011

How to end corruption in India ? Try Self-Forgiveness


Due to the popular fast-unto-death thingy by Anna Hazare in india, there is a big uprising or should i call it, a TV movement, an urge going on in india to end corruption. very fascinating indeed.

it seems in every corner there is some politician or civil servant is busy making a name for him/herself in the arena of corruption. this problem of corruption of course is not an indian problem, its found in very corner of the world, wherever there is money, of course, corruption will be there. as everyone is trying to make a quick buck in the shortest possible way, so corruption is a way of life, it's a mean to make a living. i mean, if i was starving or my children are starving, i am sure i will resort to corrupt means to make money too. 

in this crazy winner gets all system, where there is no care or concern, of course corruption is the way to go for some. 

now these politicians and other big fellows, the makers and shakers of the current world system, they are corrupt because they want to make the 'most' out of the system. they want to earn for generations. i mean all those top notch CEOs, politicians, executives, the elite folks, they will make money nice way or corrupt way. they are into making big money for generations. corruption is simply a tool, only difference is some big fellows play it 'illegally' and get caught in the news media for corruption, while most big boys make their big moneys legally but highly corrupt meaning, not a drop of self honesty in their ways to making money. legally speaking, of course, they method is 'fine'. but we all know, it is not best for all.

so how do we end corruption in India ? it starts with the most simple solution, a simple tool, self-forgiveness. with that, self purification is initiated, with time, self is rebirthed as life. 

so  if you're a real fucking Indian, and you want to end corruption in India, first, self-forgive yourself, rebirth yourself as life. then you will see the practical solutions to support life for ..

For sure, corruption will end within yourself, at least one non-corrupt India will be born, and that is YOU. 

Corruption in India ends with you. 

so try self-forgiveness for yourself. 

Investigate www.desteni.co.za and www.equalmoney.org

Apr. 4th, 2011

Can you recall the thoughts you had 2 years ago? or 2 hours ago ?

i am investigating to write a diary about my back-chats, meaning i want to jot down all my mental dialogues that i have. i want to start writing those mind-chats daily. all those conversations inside the head, all those blames, fears, yelling and other bullshit that goes inside my grey matter must be written down. 

As i want to see what i entertain within my mind on a regular basis. after all, i have spent forty plus years inside my mind yet i don't recall what i was thinking just 2 hours ago. well forget about 2 hours ago, i don't' recall what i was thinking just 20 minutes ago. surely i won't be able to recall my backchats say 10 years ago. i mean, yet in 10 years ago, or 20 years ago i lived a hellish life thanks to my mind dialogues though i have no record of it. 

so its time to record my daily mental conversations in detail. so that i can see for myself what i have been doing inside my mind. i mean after all my physical actions were all result of my mind discussions. i want to see my own creator on written form. 

yep time to write mind-chats, backchat down on paper. 

Apr. 2nd, 2011

India won the world cup.

yeah fuck india won the cricket world cup. there goes my $10 fee to watch the game on tv. i just can't believe how fucking addicted hooked and crazy about cricket. i had to watch it. and by the end when i realized that sri lanka is not going to win, i slowly left the restaurant as if i could care less about cricket final. 

so it goes to show i wasn't there to enjoy a game of cricket, rather i went to enjoy the feeling of wining. yes winning. that is why once realized that victory was not insight i lost all interest in the game. last one hour or so, i was gone. later on thru the website i found the actual result then didn't even bother to read the details. 

its not the love of the game, nor the physical mastery of cricket, no not at all, its all about enjoying the thrill of winning. bit like war, this is why nationalism and love for one's army exist. its all about winning. we win thru sports, thru fights, thru wars, its all about winning. 

the mind loves to win. its exciting to win. thrilling to win. energy rushing to score that victory. 

and we can clearly see what winning has done to this world. capitalism is all about winning, in that game of survival some win most lose. we cannot afford to let capitalism continue in any form whatsoever. its time for a new money system.

so i stand for equal money system. 

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